I MISS SCHOOL!

came across a super rowdy and vulgar customer today. wanted to wring his neck very badly.
super bad day for me.
had to run all the way to the weighing station for this guy who happens to be talking away on his motorola v3.. left without a single 'thanks'. how rude..
lets talk about the super annoying guy... he is obviously a businessman who cannot pronounce his hokkien swear words properly.
have you ever heard "KEN-nina?" pardon me.
armed with this amazing array of swear words of hokkien and english, he screamed and kicked up this HUGE fuss. AA sia. wanted to throw some cabbages at him. he went to complain and made some more noise.
i'm so proud of myself i IGNORED him completely.
for the first time in 16 years, some kid called me an AUNTIE.
DO I LOOK LIKE AN AUNTIE???
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
had to extend my working hours because the next cashier made her appearance only two hours later. I WAS WORKING FOR 2 HOURS WITHOUT PAY.. and she 'diao-ed' me when she came la. WHAT IS THIS?
ran out out change and was only left with tens, fifties and hundreds.. had to ask for change for a kazillion times. stupid.
sigh...
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE RESULTS TO COME OUT.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START.
man.. i'd give anything for some more lessons on differentiation now. so tired....
SIGH.

i have found yet another person who shares the same birthday as me.

JOE CHENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
haha.. so now i have the answer to why he is such a crapper. people born on the 19th of june have the wackiest life. heh..

hmm... i see my missing twin(s) everywhere now..

1. Joe Zheng Yuan Chang
2. Garfield
3. cuzzie born 2 hrs before me [she's a genius and i'm not. growl...]
4. cuzzie born many years after me. she's cute! =)
5. kindergarten to p school friend. he's CRAP.
6. friend of my dad..

wow.. HAHA.. no wonder. no wonder...
HE'S SO CUTE!!!
*like me* =)

I WAN THE ER ZUO JU ZHI WEN VCD!
saw the book at kinokuniya today. it costs a freaking bomb.. sigh.. will anyone buy it for me please? lol..
went to bugis today. had dinner with 4f.. kinda like a farewell party for yanting... she's going over to australia tomorrow.. dinner tore my pockets apart.
did i mention her present?
sigh..
JOE CHENG IS SO CUTE!!
AHHHHH!!
pardon me for my cmi-ness. heheh..
meanwhile, i shall start listing down my wants in the wishlist, and I WELCOME GIFTS ALL YEAR ROUND!
WHOO! IS THAT GOOD OR WHAT?
heh

if you guys are wondering why haven't i been blogging, here's the answer.
i have been 'er zuo ju zi wen'-ing.
i can't believe this. i'm sooo addicted to cheesy taiwanese series.. HAHA.
linz, you're right.
JOE CHENG IS SOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so cute..

SO CUTE!!!!!!

sigh.. i'm so cannot-make-it.

i'm on afternoon shift today.. going to wear the ugly looking apron.. LOL..
not really looking forward to work.. everything is just so sian.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY I GET MY RESULTS.
everybody is going to the open house.
and i'm stuck at work. WHAT IS THIS?
ah heck. think of what i can buy after i get my pay.. hahahahah..

finally an off day for me.
FINALLY.
anyway for u guys studying your pants off in jc, RELAX. i'm sure its nothing compared to working.
i'd happily go back to school if u ask me to.
the stress we face while studying is nothing compared to working.
before i start nagging like a yaya auntie, let me rephrase the abovementioned.

what stresses me up (after 5 days in ntuc) :

- failure to convey ANY message to elderly men/women.
- shortages in money at the end of the day.
- "why the discount ONLY 2%???"
- when a whole line of grouchy looking customers appear at your counter.
- "YOU'RE GOING TO SPOIL MY TOMATOES!"
- when the ugly looking man asks you to hurry up.
- when customers pile their lifetime worth of rice (mind you. 10kg each.) on your counter.
- when aunties demand for angbao packet.
- "WHY NO FREE GIFT?"
- when they ask you to separate their purchase into 5 receipts to enter the lucky draw.
- WHEN THEY DUMP A FARM ONTO YOUR COUNTER. chickens and ducks leave ALOT of blood.
- when they sneak an extra orange/apple.
- when my hands smell like rotten seafood at the end of the day.

i'd gladly go back to mugging for o levels.
REALLY.

NO FOREIGN CURRENCY TODAY!
NO SHORTAGES!
NO EXCESSES!
I'M A GENIUS!!!!

LOL.. today is senior citizens day at ntuc.. i had to repeat the same questions over and over..
"member?"
"le4 ling2 ka3?"
"lao3 lang2 card4?"
and i stupidly asked a middle aged woman for the purple ezlink.
call me an idiot.

had a super yaya customer today. he insisted for elderly discount when i'm sure he's like.. 30+40...
i had to "I BEGGGG YOUR PARDON?"
yeah.. and he insisted he have huge plastic bags to stuff the other small bags..
talk about saving the environment. he's so irritating.
then he took like what? 15 minutes standing there checking his receipt. HAVE FAITH LAR!
I'M A PRO OK?
LOL.
and he asked me why did i key in 3 oranges.
and insisted that i was wrong.. until we took out his oranges and shoved it into his face.
told my colleague i felt like putting my fist through his crooked teeth and made her laugh like siao man.. haha.. evil me..

this job is totally fun lar.. minus the fact that i see yusof bin ishak's face everytime i close my eyes.
this is getting out of hand and i won't be surprised if i see him in person one day.
lets just hope he doesn't talk to me in malay. hokkien and teochew is already a handful.

i think i must learn how to phrase "pardon me for my bad and broken hokkien/teochew" in dialect.
the look on the old auntie's faces whenever i try to communicate effectively is hilarious.
i dun understand half of what they are saying and they same goes to them.
my rotting brain takes 10 seconds to convert english to dialect. pardon me, WRONG DIALECT.
okok.. i admit.. i cannot tell the difference between hokkien and teochew.
speak cantonese to me and i'll wonder if u are an indian.

SIGH.

i received hong kong money today.
in addition to the brunei and malaysia currency.
WOW.
met up with ah linz and dory today.. had sakae, which was disappointing.
HOW CAN YOU NOT HAVE CHA SOBA AND SOMEN?
stupid. i'm never ever going to visit the citilink branch, ever, again.
bought a new pair of jeans which shredded the remnants of my wallet.
at least i dun have to wear the pair i have been wearing ever since i started training..
one week plus. i'm sure they really stink now. YUCKS. i know.
you can't blame me. until today i only have a pathetic pair of jeans.
poor me.

i have no life now.
NO LIFER- bring it on, dudette.
cashiering is uber boring.
customers take me as a retard.
38 $1 coins
MALAYSIA RINGGIT.
tomatoes packed the wrong way.
FISH. DUCK. CHICKEN = BLOOD.
this is SICK.

so tired.. i'm gonna crash..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

i woke up with a dire need to blog. 2.21am..not the ideal time to be typing away at my comp, but still i know this is something i have to talk about.

a few months ago i went to this particular service at brighton..
the message is still clear in my mind- till today.. i can remember it was during mid july (if i'm not wrong), it is the only message- so far- that i felt that it was the most important in my life.

it wasn't about salvation. nor was it about the truths of life.

it was about masks.

this is not something opera singers don on every performance.
it is also not jim carrey as the mask.

this is the invisible mask that each and every one of us have.
the mask you wear to school - to gain attention/ to be invisible
the mask you wear to work - to act as a professional
the mask you wear in front of your crush
the mask you wear when despite being torn apart by harsh words, you shrug them all off.

this is what keeps us alive in this dog-eat-dog world.at the same time, this is also what destroys us.

i must admit. i have on different masks all the time. when i pretend to be the outgoing one, loud and cheerful when at times i really needed a break from the world.
when i pretend to be undeterred by passing remarks that may have torn my heart into pieces.
even when i cannot bring myself to tell some of the people i detest to get out of my life.
this makes me a liar, backstabber, bitch..
everything everybody claimed to hate.

i have on this mask ALL THE TIME.

but then again, nobody's perfect.
this is the mask everybody has on.
during that particular saturday, the message hit a nerve in everybody in the room.
it was the most sensitive, close to the heart issue i have ever came across.
when asked "are you going to surrender you mask at the altar?", it took almost 15 minutes before the single hand was raised.
that guy was the only one who dared to. because nobody else wanted to admit that they have this mask on. even in church. i admire him for his courage.

the mask[s] has become a part of us. something which we can never ever bring ourselves to confess of its presence.
there is only one person i know of, my entire life, who hides behind so many facades.. so many.
that i do not know who she really is.
whenever we show a sign of weakness, it is when the mask is slipping away.
the fragile mind of the human being is indeed, hard to decipher.
but this girl. she had on so many masks. that i had to ask myself, "do i really know her?"
frankly speaking, she could be any stranger i meet on the streets. i know nothing about her. absolutely nothing.

we humans do not like to be seen as weak, helpless and stripped of all hope.
we prefer to be known as strong, courageous and full of hope. these 3 words fuel our ego.
nobody wants to be unknown.
everyone wants to make an impact to the world.
perhaps the only key to this door which leads to ultimate success is the curtain we hide behind. the curtain of many shades, colours, materials.
the curtain which shows what we want others to see.

when i come across friendster profiles, i see many proclaiming their hate for liars and backstabbers.
bull.
everybody lie.
everybody backstab.
some people even attempted murder with physical and emotional warfare.
owners of these profiles. does that mean you love no one in the world, including yourself?

the mask is the weapon of mass destruction.
it hides greed, lust,hate and undesirable thoughts that any man can ever conceive.
it protects your ego and the weaker part of yourself.
it crushes the life out of the entire human race.
all these done out of selfishness.

it seems that nobody is innocent anymore.
the mask. until now i haven't figured out what exactly was i hitting at.

i just had to blog about this.
somebody, enlighten me.

note to self:
crazy- simple plan
girl next door- saving jane

i never blog enough. haha.. really.. am using the other computer now.. my dad sent the dell one for servicing.. my sis and i are damn *power* sia... haha.. this time it has nothing to do with software. its the hardware problem. the cd burner is stuck. ARGH- *stupiak*
it feels so weird cos all of a sudden i'm staring at a white computer covered with a layer of dust.. haha.. speaking of which dust actually tastes mostly like charcoal and mildew and salt and rust. eew. dun ask me how i know. lol..
[makes a mental note to read the news. not just the comics and tv section.]
it really pays to know the news sometimes.. otherwise it would be totally stupid to have a blog and have nothing to write in it.. heh.. realised that i have taken a sudden liking to my sister's keyboard.. i dun even have to whack the keys like i do with the other one.. must think of something else to type about.. maybe i can like... time myself when i type.. so i can fill up my resume in total confidence the next time.. haha.. imagine.. 3000 wpm. bwahaha.. i know i sound a little bit off today.. what i did today really made me steer off course.. haha..
woke up at ard 9 today..went to the bank... i cant believe i had to wake up that early just to go to the bank. they have the strangest opening hours..
ok.. note to self: Bo Bice - the real thing.
thats the song i want.. haha... power98-ing.. yada yada.
i have a feeling this is a completely CRAP post. may end up deleting the entire thing. i feel so *lame*.
ok.. where was i? oh.. the bank.. the woman laughed at me when i told her i'll be working in ntuc.. haha.. appied for the atm card.. FINALLY.
i was like..
me: "ntuc.. cashier*stupid grin*"
her: "really? *laugh* good good.. next time u can be bank cashier.."
me: " oh.. heh heh.. dunwan lar.. haha.."
ok.. i almost told her she was welcomed to visit me there whenever possible.. haha.
me? bank cashier? are you kidding? my maths is totally shite lor.
yeah..then it started to rain. as usual i didnt have an umbrella.. walked in the rain to macdonalds. had lunch, lonely.. and wet.
how low can i go? felt so pathetic.. even the mac aunty thought i was a loner, a liu3 lang4 han4.
WAH!
suddenly its a good thing for me to start working soon.
i'm too bored. so now you know why i've been crapping so much in this post. i'm bored and i feel like i'm the only person on earth now.
47% of maplestory installed.
48%..
AH HECK! this is SO SLOW!
lol..

i'm officially hired!
announcing.. her royal highness,
VALERIE THE CASHIER.
hahaha.. xD
will be working at ntuc in aljunied crescent wef 13jan.. friday the 13.. training at queenstown blahlablah.. and guess what? i'll be training with weini! haha.. it must be fate, girl..
it must be fate.
turned out she went for the interview today after i did.. bwahaha.. met p.schl friend carmen who happened to be cashiering there as well.. wahhaa.. turned out i'm not alone!
okay.. i admit.. i'm excited about this non-exciting job..
bring it on! cashier! yayness~
xD

too much time spent rotting at home makes me desperate. after spending quality time on the phone with various potential employers and leelin respectively, i have finally found a job.
will be going down for an interview tomorrow.. yada yada.. not really very exciting lar.. lol..
if everything goes as planned, i will work at the ntuc near my house.
save transport fares.
save time.
save money on meals. i can always eat at home..
HAHA.. okok.. i admit lar..
i'm too bored..
wish me luck! xD

2006 already.. time really flies..
what really happened in 2005? i can't remember..
sigh..
okay. 2006! i haven't really thought much of a new year's resolution (besides losing weight-DUH) so maybe i'll give it a go.. haha..

my 2006 addictions and cravings...
in a nutshell.

.Mike He Jun Xiang.
the oh-my-goodness-he's-so-hot guy who starred in 'devil beside you', '7th grade','express boy', 'say yes enterprise' and 'love contract'.. my heart just skipped a beat.. haha..

please say he's cute. haha..
.Devil Beside You .
it all started with Devil Beside You.. this is a die die must watch show!
to me of course..heh..

**note to ah llinz.. PLEASE GO TO THIS SITE. http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t165837.html
devil beside you vs it all started with a kiss.. this is sooooo your show lorh! LEND ME THE VCD!!!**
all of a sudden i feel so cheena.. what happened? haha.. must watch more english stuffs.. i can feel my english lingo dropping at a devastating rate already..
AHHH! haha..
.music.
ah.. some of the nicest songs i have found in 2005..
Always -Bon Jovi (old and nice.. haha)
Welcome to Wherever You Are -Bon Jovi (new and also nice)
Give Me Novacaine -Green Day
Sugar We're Going Down -Fall Out Boy (100 thumbs up)
Miracles Happen -Myra (princess diaries!!)
Ai Mei - Yang Cheng Ling (Devil Beside You O.S.T)
.What I Want in 2006. besides losing weight
give my best academic-wise.. JC or Poly, BRING IT ON!
lend the vcd from ah llinz
an oh-my-goodness-he's-so-hot boyfriend.. HAHA..
and of course, LOSE WEIGHT.
.What I Learnt in 2005.
make wiser decisions..
work hard or regret later

these are what i can think of at the moment.. in the meantime..
BACK TO THE SHOW!!!
hahhahahaa xD