hey dudettes!
sentosa piques are up!!! note to huijoo: didn't have time to photoshop. sry..
take at your own pace and thank me.. =)

collected the iBook today.. am using it now to post this entry.. BWAHAHAHHA. sentosa trip was fine..will upload the pics when i feel like it..
finished watching da chang jin today.. the guy is so super cute la.. LOL.. so cute so cute so cute.. =)
montage seems so meaningless now.. zhiyan and i have finally decided to make a disappearing act. FINALLY.
i can't wait to get my pay.. this is so sick.. its already the 7th! how much longer do i have to wait? SIGH..
i have morphed into some CMI couch potato.. and since i am finished with da chang jin, 16 eps of zhong ji yi ban, i seriously have no idea what i am going to do next..
so its the iBook and me for now.. playing ard with the mac system.. everything is just so cute la can.. haha..
huijoo thinks that i'm para para queen now. and apparently she has shared similar thoughts about my dancing prowess in her msn nick. gosh.. i'm blushing already.. ahhaa.. i will never, ever land myself on that machine, ever again.

so these photos actually tells us that there's a HUGE difference between people from stone age and now..
haha.. why can't they set da chang jin in 2006 or something? he looks so hot la can.. (ok la.. he's equally cute in the traditional robe thingy. and the hat thing. and the funny goatee-thingy. )

going to sentosa with the 4f clique in.... 9 hours?
shite. i'm still watching da chang jin....
maybe i'll just nap at the beach later... BWAHAHHAHAH..

my dad's furious with the both of us (my mum and of course, ME).. we can't help it la.. da chang jin-ing has become part of our daily routine now..
my mum likes the cooking parts.. she's at ep.25
i fast forward to all the parts with the guy in it.. =)
and i'm at ep.35

i should really ban my mum from watching any more of da chang jin..
she woke me up today with "FANG SI! so late still sleeping!" what the.. FANG SI? hahahahhahaha.. oh.. did i mention that she also started whacking and literally kneading me like what da chang jin did to the dough.
this is torture..
TORTURE..
let me sleep laaaa....
blame da chang jin for everything! the reason i overslept was because i was watching it at 4am..
GAH-

i fell off the bed at 6am.
and it hurt like hell.

saw this mjc girl in macs today.. she was droning on and on about jcs, cut off points, appeals to tj yada yada.. she talks as if she owns macs la.. so we decided to play this game..
me(loudly): so how's life in VJC?
weini(loudly): stress ar.. how about you? HWA CHONG tough?
me: ya lor.. but they're going on and on about the zhiyang campus superstar thing...
her: haha.. VJC so tough can..
HAHAHHAHAH..
should have seen her face can!

last day at ntuc! NO MORE SLAVING MY LIFE AWAY!
NO MORE ANNOYING CUSTOMERS!
NO MORE HOKKIEN CONVERSATIONS!
haha.. met lin and dory for dinner.. bought my mum's super early mother's day present.
yes. its the da chang jin vcd.. HAHA.. turned out i was more excited about the show then my mother was.. HAHA.. opened the box and shoved the 50th disc into my comp straight away.. didn't understand the ending.. but who cares anyway?
LOL. i'm a lagger AND a spoiler..

1.42am.. just came home from work.. =D
stock taking was fun.. haha.. counted chocolates, shavers, toothbrushes, batteries and (guess what) condoms!
this is the first time i can finally read the contents at the back of the box without feeling guilty of whatever.. haha.. 'Please use the condom once only', 'Condoms are electronically tested'
what the?
hahahaa.. and have u heard of this thing called the vibrating condom? haha..
ok.. enough of the condoms.. had supper at mac with carmen, jiahui and weini.. teased the guy working there (we gave him the GEMS thank you card and made him do the same the next time he goes to ntuc.. and i have officially changed weini's number to 999- dun kill me ah... heh..)
my stomach is bloated with my undigested big mac meal, and this is the last time i'm ever going to have supper this late..
weini left with her friend for supper take two and the three of us decided to have some fun with the camera.. WAHAHAHA..
yes.. i admit.. i have been zi lian-ing with carmen's camera.. and we did our 'loner' shots in the middle of the road.. its so fun cos there are no cars out.. will post the photos once carmen has it uploaded..
one hell of a day spent..
will be reporting back to work in 6 hours time..
=)

met up with gfs today.. i was late- as usual... went to kbox AGAIN. haha.. was zi lian-ing using ah llin's new phone.. bwahaha..
i'm really fat.
fat
fat
fat
must really exercise now or i'll never be able to find myself some decent clothes..
19 days to montage. what is this? i still don't know if i'm playing alto or tenor sax. and i OBVIOUSLY don't know how to play (apart from the fact that i have never seen the tenor scores..)
hmmm.. this is a serious problem..
2 days to ntuc's stock take.
6 more days in ntuc.
10 more days till i get my iBook.
27 more days to orientation.
mass comm here i come!

=)

location of captain pig: HK disneyland
location of loyal sidekick: ntuc fairprice

suddenly, the whole world is:

buying toilet paper.
yeap. i swear i had at least 15 customers who bought two packs of toilet paper each. there were people who bought 6 packs. THAT'S what i call a lifetime supply..
in TP business.
YES THE WHOLE WORLD IS THERE. IT'S GOING TO BE SO FREAKING PACKED.
in vjc.
yeap.. almost half of my then-classmates from gmps are there.

what i've missed out yesterday..

understatement of the century and centuries to come. we are 'what'. NOT 'cool'..
which makes us pretty special.. =)
didn't have the time to list them all down. honest confession: didn't know if i have TEN.
all i have is one: she's IRRESISTABLE!
hahahhahaa...

met the toothpaste woman for the first time in my life.
16 big tubes of colgate is enough to last my entire class for two months.
so now there is the..
1. luncheon man
2. coconut man
3. chicks&ducks/mjr chicken rice uncle
4. sugar lady
5. cabbage guy
.. i think..
can't really remember.. but who cares? it's going to be my last few days at ntuc..
stock taking on the 27th at 10pm.. haha.. we're going to tear ntuc apart..=)

lost 10bucks today. so darn miserable..
choked on a piece of mutton today.. it was caught in my throat.. cannot swallow, cannot pull out.
I ALMOST DIED BECAUSE THE STUPID PIECE OF SHEEP WAS TOO BIG.
super suey today. SIGH.

location of captain pig: HK
went to np to order my laptop today. will be getting iBook G4.. the 12" and cheapest of the lot.
Plaza Sing-ed with dory today. poor leelin and her swollen ankle AND her new phone..
and here are the photos! yay~my new shoes! CANYOUSEETHEMCANYOUSEETHEM? haha..






the words made sense. [dory: dun kill me.. its already on fster..] =)

three other photos couldn't make it online.. blame blogger for not being able to make it all work and me for being too lazy to upload it to photobucket.. and i don't have the photo with dory's sexy pose.. awww.. too bad, guys..

bought a new necklace today.. ripped the remnants of my wallet into confetti..
am counting down to my last day at work and- of course, payday.
maybe i'll get myself an mp3 now. and a pair of decent jeans..

the thing i always do when i reach home every day is to park myself in front of the comp, whether or not i feel like it.
its such a wonder i can stare at the screen the entire night without having anything else to do.. my eyebags are worse than what i had during o's..

"did you see my daughter?"
gosh.. he's like.. 60 plus.. i dun think he'd have some toddler running about in ntuc..
"huh?"
"got see my daughter anot?"
he pulls an envelope out from his pocket and fishes for a newpaper cutting..
"Neh... my daughter.. 1pm.. got watch anot?"
oh..he's daughter is actually our national table tennis player..


ntuc stank like dirty socks today..
all because of me.
i broke a bottle of vinegar..
oops?

met llinz and dory at suntec today for dinner.. had kfc.. yada yada.. thinking of joining sailing as my cca.. cool, eh?

i'm going to buy my nike dunks converse shoes tomorrow.. i think...
will be going for the classic look.. can save money also.. haha..

and will be getting myself a decent pair of jeans that fits me nicely.. i'm tired of pulling them up all the time.. talk about looking unglam..
haha..

my posts are getting more and more depressing by the day..
sis' away in NZ.. i'm alone at home again..
and i'm going to blast my music through the entire night..

there, a happy entry.
=)

i am an insignificant human being.
how dumb can i be? to try to change myself to become the best friend of my then-best friend.

i feel really stupid now. should appreciate the ones i have with me rather than to try to prove my worth to someone who's wasting her life away.

dory: i love you and i'll never do it again.
slap me everytime i swear and kick me everytime i curse.
shortie: stop chinese paladin-ing le lar.. LOL

i really hate myself now. i hate how i can cuss and swear at every single thing on earth. i hate the way i behave now; so paikia.. gah-
i hate my attitude problem.
i hate trying very hard to be friends with the wrong people.
i hate the fact that i earn nothing much out of hours i slave away.
how i wish i am who i was. God help me.

went out with dory after work today to chiong her portfolio.. good luck girlie! hope u will get into tp! =)
anyway.. had to provide free gift wrapping service at huijoo's workplace today cos darling dearest didn't know how to. so proud of myself! i can finally come up with a decent end product.. bwahaha..

some guy tried to pick me up just now at ntuc.
there must be something wrong with me.
i swear he's at least 30 and is diagnosed with some sort of a mental illness.
am i really that bad when it comes to these things? i wouldn't mind if an average dude did it, but HELLO?
he's some psychopath can..

and this auntie literally shoved a bag of fish into my face. i almost kissed dead fish for the first time in my life.

will anyone hire me? english tutor with no qualifications nor experience.
i charge ridiculously low rates!

haha..

sometimes i wish the world doesn't revolve around money.

for once, i wished peter pan would come and whisk me away to never never land.
where is my fairy godmother when i needed one?
where is my oh-gosh-he's-fat-and-ugly prince charming?
i'll never believe in fairytales again.

why must ibooks cost so much?

and i can't believe money is so hard to earn.

to the lil' kiddies in the world, stop buying ipods and psps. save while u can so u can afford higher education which can help u earn twice the amount back in years to come.

the things that seriously bug me.

picture a tertiary student pass..
then picture this on the tertiary student pass

ok.. destroy that horrid image from your head. the picture looks grotesquely stunted.

the enrolment process is hell.. so many things to take care of.. so much money is involved.. i regret not going to a jc.. and since my dad's retiring the end of this month, we must really go on a save-all-you-can regime..
and i'll be paying $112.30 for my school fees. and since i hate the fact of having to work my pants off in ntuc for the measly $500 a month, i'll either have to work till the end (its only 20+more days to go) or quit and start looking for a better paying job.
but no idiot is going to hire me for less than a month.
gah-
was talking to sis about how i should take up a job as a private tutor when school reopens.. haha..
as if the parents will want to hire me.. their kids will end up dead by the week before PSLE..
anyway, i should realllly start looking for a job... soon?

what happened in the end...

they didn't fire me.
neither did i quit..
haha.. off tomorrow, off on tuesday! yay!

LINZ! DORY!
LETS GO K-BOXING!

or the zoo..

haha..

Lord...

please let them fire me tomorrow..

Amen.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to give more than take in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

sweet simplicity

new look for the blog!
off tmr will be swimming the flabs off and meeting darling dearest lecia for take two of shopping spree@ marina.









too bad huijoo has to work for the entire day, or we'll wreak havoc at zara again tomorrow.. haha..

ahh.. nothing beats a glass of orange juice in the middle of the night.
i have finally found the inevitable way to curb my constant craving for root beer.
JUICE.
yeah! orange juice..haha.. its a plus considering how the fibre can make u shit. (i hope i got my bio stuffs correct. it's been ages since i last saw my bio text.)
sis wore my puma jacket to class today.. this guy thought she looked like a road marshal.. oops?
LOL.
i like the colour la. its still my favourite among all the others i saw.. BWAHHAHAHA..

was feeling depressed and everything today, but it finally dawned upon me that i'll meet loads of different people in my life. some people will think i'm weird, some will hate me for who i am and some will simply ignore my very existance.
gotta live with it. this is life, and there's no way i'm going to run away from it.
face it. i'm sure there are people who really hate me for my unbelievably huge mouth and an out of order brain.
i'll appear as a retard to some, or even stupid (to certain people).
[*note to self: find out if i'm really that stupid]
will attempt to comfort myself and take in whatever criticisms and comments dished out.

i know i can't please everybody.
apparently 'being generally nice to everybody' doesn't work on some people.
but it certainly beats being generally mean to everyone in sight.

being fat is not a sin.
you must be acquainted with the physical education department of manjusri secondary to be able to think that way.
i'd suggest to you to try to walk up to some fat ah beng smoking his joint with his fellow ka kias in a typical kopitiam and tell him that he should lose some weight.
check with your dad if you've bought insurance before you do that.i'm sure it'll cover at least half the hospitalisation fees..

everything in its time.

The Lord is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the
valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
You rod and Your staff, they
comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in
the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall
follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house
of the Lord
Forever.

-Psalm 23

growl...

went shopping with huijoo and lecia today.. bought the puma jacket! yay.. LOL..
spent like $100+ today.. feeling damn broke now la..
one down, loads to go...
i dun care but i'm going on a shopping spree at zara next..
haha.

stark raving mad...

i have finally decided to take part in montage... yay.. LOL
tough decision, i know.. but i'm just a sucker for band concerts (and you-know-who).. =)
anway.. its been 2 months since i've joined ntuc.. and like i've said, many things changed..

FOR ONCE, i can converse in hokkien to old aunties and uncles..
and FOR ONCE, they understand what i'm saying..
an improvement considering the fact that i spoke some kind of english-hokkien-teochew-cantonese mix to a very very confused auntie..

today, i'm going to tell u the different species of shoppers i encounter on a daily basis..


1. the 'coconut' man.
- he who never fails to buy at least 12 coconuts.

2. the 'luncheon-meat' uncle.
-28 cans at one go. lets not forget he's the one who paid me 109 bucks in coins.

3. the 'poultry' cum '2 dollar notes' uncle
-also known as 'chicken rice' uncle in mjr.

4. the 'coins in plastic bag' aunties.
-brace yourselves for the attack of the coins.

5. the 'can i change my $20 worth of 5cents with you?' ah ma
-poor thing.. i can never forget the wounded expression on her face when i told her no..


can't really think of anymore.. will update when i feel like it...

montage 2, here i come!

just when i thought everything's ok..

damn depressed today. i think i've just been cheated of a hundred bucks.
my pay is 100 bucks less of what i've expected! what is this? work like a cow for so many effing hours just to get a measly 400 bucks. going back to work to ask the person in charge tmr.. if i can't get what i'm supposed to, i'm quitting for good.
sis coming back from thailand! yay.. =)
was flipping through past letters and neoprints..
like what i've said i'm the previous post.. everything has changed.
everyone's different from last year and the year before..
how i wish poly can start immediately.
i'm so sick of this routine i want to puke.

mindless musings of the day

two years ago i brought a bar of kitkat to school. it was valentines day.
the next day, i saw the wrapper on the floor.
three years later, i'm still hopelessly pining for the day he'll ever talk to me again.
another three years heading our way.. nah. make it two..
i guess everything will be the same...

gosh.. i can't believe i just typed that down.

everything around us is constantly under-going change.
have i changed?
have my life changed?

i have no idea..

migraines come one after another. so many things to worry about.
how i wish i can run away from the world sometimes..
got my pay.. only 400+..
can buy nothing. going to get some lousy mp3.. heh..

now its jpsae.. haha..

i dun know if i should laugh or cry.
this was what i wanted, but all of a sudden, i'm starting to have second thoughts.
SHIT.

the results will be out in a few more hours... i can't sleep and my ears are ringing. what a headache. off tmr, was working my pants off (yet again) just now.. just helped bibi with some letter thingy and i realised my english is CRAP all thanks to tv. BLAME THE MEDIA! haha.. sis flying off to bangkok tmr for holiday..
anyway.. they were showing some really cool hk dramas on tv and i got hooked.. =x haha.. thanks to my celeb crush, roger kwok. i know he's old and everything, but the character he played was just so irresistable.. (lets not forget he's good looking too). everything i want in my boyfriend to be. HAHA.











aww.. too bad he's so old. LOL...

yeap.. its called greed mask... (*subtle hint: BUY ME THE VCD AND I'LL LOVE YOU!)
make it ANY VCDS OF SHOWS BY ROGER KWOK AND I'LL LOVE U AS MUCH.

crap. crappity crap crap. haha.. anyway.. where was i? yea.. my horrid english. now i wonder how i'll survive if i ever get into comm studies..

seven and a half more hours to go..
GOOD LUCK ALL YOU GUYS!
=)

payday in four days! YES!!!
i can't wait to quit my job. it's totally sucks the life out of me. for goodness' sake i'm already dull enough.
i dun wanna be reduced to some zombie-like homo sapien.
ah... GAH-
anyways, PAYDAY IN FOUR DAYS! yeahhhhh~ haha.. can't wait to get my hands on the ipod and dunks. YEAHHH.. pardon me for my CMI-ness. but i just can't help it can..
i think the posting results will be out soon.. *crosses fingers*
masscommmasscommmasscommmasscommmasscomm
going to work from 2 to 10 later. THEY'RE KILLING ME!
8 hours. plus the stupid test and the fact that its lao lang card day today.
how wunderful.

there are just so many things i want to buy now.. and i'm thinking to hell with nano, a shuffle will do...
it's pretty cool anyway.. haha... saw this fantabulous puma jacket i knew i had to get it.. its lime green and black, but its SO thick i think i will sweat like a pig in it. gah~
and the nike dunks.. SIGH. nobody thinks the black and gold one is nice. NOBODY.
WHYYY??
off today.. working from 2 to 10 tmr. going to suffer like hell.. taking the test too.. bloody hell.
all these for the gems certificate.. if u dunno what it is, its Go the Extra Mile for Service - thingy.
yawn. i have absolutely nothing to blog about, apart from the fact that i'm watching ISWAK ALL OVER AGAIN.
so much for having a dull life, eh?

went for the interview today.. realised my english is horrible.
HORRID!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

it is agreed that my sis and i should never go grocery shopping.

SHAMPOO -$10.50
FROZEN SPRING ROLLS - $2.54
FROZEN SAMOSAS - $2.19
FROZEN SOYBEANS - $2.85
SUNMAID RAISINS - $3.95
HAZELNUT ICECREAM - $3.60
LISTERINE BREATH STRIPS - $3.95
SANITARY PADS - $4.70
SANITARY PADS - $4.70
SANITARY PADS - $5.95

-

SUBTOTAL - $44.93

ok.. the thing about this is we simple grab what we feel like eating.. i had this craving for raisins so i grabbed a tub of them. A TUB OF RAISINS. how insane can i get? the spring rolls will have to be fried. since i was the one who craved for it, i supposed its time for me to learn how to fry it. what kinds of utensils and how much oil is needed and maybe find out if magarine can be a substitute for deep frying.
my sis bought her ice cream and lifetime supply of pads..
bought a bottle of shampoo.. it's a need.. we ran out.

i think this is the last time my dad'll ever let us venture on our own to ntuc.
HAHA.

i'm so sick my nose feels like its falling off. did i mention my throat is killing me?
took mc again. feel like shit. especially after band today..
ah.. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I PLAYED FIRST SAXOPHONE.
yes. for the first time in my life. so happy can.. upon recollection of the past, i realise my history with the sax section were not the most memorable. everyone hated me then. you wouldn't want to know why. everyone was pretty childish then..
but anyway, i finally got to play 1st alto sax despite my throat which was already strangling the life out of me..
but my playing is definitely more horrid and everything.. yada yada.. shite. i sounded like a broken record on eternal loop. HAHA.
anyway.. met linz and dory.. crapped the entire day.. dory met a new friend.. kid about 3 years old.. i'm telling ya, HE ADORES HER! lol..
so sick.
so damn tired.
there's something wrong with my respiratory system.
even a tub of paracetemol can't help me now.

i know i haven't blogged for centuries. but life is sooo dull i seem to have pretty much nothing to write about.
nothing. zilch. nada.
everything is like a routine. going to work is like a chore. 4th april will be my last day at work. had to work for another month so that i can finally buy my ipod and dunks. yes.. my 'wants' seem pretty expensive.. but i think i'll neeed an mp3 player to accompany me on the longgg trips i will have to make if i were to go to np..
gah-
going to my first alumni band meeting tmr.. wonder how everything will turn out.. yada yada..
night shift for tmr. SIAN.
LIFE IS SOOOOO SOOOO SOOO DULL.

watched the grammys live ard last week.. green day got the record of the year!
on showed them going up onstage for a while.. then BAM! gone. lol..anyway. they are still my fav band. billie joe is as cute as ever.

going off to work in like.. 30mins.. haven't thought of how i'm going to fake a sprained ankle.
ah.. shit.

v day is so depressing. i can't believe i'll have to slave away at the checkout counter at ntuc while my prince charming is somewhere waiting to be found...
sigh...
ok.. enough with the crap. going to work tmr.. have to think about what to do to my leg so it'll look swollen and everything. i can't believe i stupidly went to use my leg as an excuse to get medical leave. how could i not have thought about something less imaginative?
stupid me.
depressed. cos iswak is finally over and so is the 7pm chinese show. HOW CAN I BE DEPRESSED ON V DAY?
but then again, its just another ordinary day humans decided to give a name for.

anyway.. enough with the i'm-a-depressed-human-being talk.. time to think about my future..
i really do hope i can get into mcm, cos i'll be so sad if i dun get in can.. lol.. since my dad didn't allow me to put aeronautical engineering as one of my choices, i have nothing else to look forward to..
when i was a kid, i seriously wanted to be a radio deejay, much inspired by the show hosted by justin ang and jeremy ratnam on power98 in my p school days. until now i still had the dream, but too bad i sound like a dying toad...
a few years later, after chancing upon the body bags series by christopher golden (they're books, not tv), i considered being a pathologist. haha.. but then again, the very sight of butterflies already sends me screaming like a retard.. maybe not.. haha
all along i wanted to be this great, world reknown musician.. thanks to my not-too-interested dad, my mum ran out of money for my violin lessons.. so even a simple abrsm grade 5 theory cert was out of reach.
so much for having a dull life.
if i dun make it to either of my first 2 choices, i'll die.. i'm telling ya..
i'll die

Choice of Courses

Exam Sitting(s): 2005

1 - N67 MASS COMMUNICATION (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)

2 - T40 DIPLOMA IN COMMUNICATIONS & MEDIA MGT (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

3 - T08 DIPLOMA IN HOSPITALITY & TOURISM MANAGEMENT (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

4 - S76 BANKING & FINANCIAL SERVICES (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)

5 - N45 BUSINESS STUDIES (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)

6 - S71 BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)

7 - T19 DIPLOMA IN LEISURE & RESORT MANAGEMENT (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

8 - N72 TOURISM & RESORT MANAGEMENT (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)

9 - S55 TOURISM & RESORT MANAGEMENT (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)

10 - N73 PHARMACY (NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC)

11 - S86 MEDIA AND COMMUNICATION (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)

12 - T01 BUSINESS/LOGISTICS & OPS MGT/MKTG (TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC)

wish me luck!
=)

thanks bibi!
refers to the post in her blog dedicated to me.. [ hugs&kisses! ]

i think i've made the final decision. mass comm in tp it is... i think..
np is just.... so tempting can..
went to work.. yada yada.. then off to meet gfs for dinner at bugis. bought a shirt from giordano.. spent some more money and officially proclaimed myself broke.. for the month.
so damn bored.
blog hopped, friendstered and msn-ed few hours ago.
still so bored. anyway i showed my sis the yearbook and pointed to her this guy i thought was cute.
she thinks he looks like a nerd.
great. now i have taste for nerds..
geekdom, here i come!
valentines day will be a total bore, considering the fact that i'll either be covering up for the girls at work (who happened to have dates) or sleeping the day away.
life is so boring can. huijoo's gonna ask if i have a bf on v day... but i guess she already knows the answer. who knows? i may die without a single bf all my life. *shudders at thought*
hell. what are girlfriends for?

haha

ahhh.. headache.. headache.. splitting headache is KILLING me....
anyway.. results was ok.. had to decide between jc and poly, but family agreed to let me pursue a poly education.. simply because i'll die in a jc.. haha.. anyway.. my dad wants me to go to tp..
but i want MCM in np..
this is shite. the bloody COP for MCM is like.. 10.. and i got like.. 11.. what are the chances? should i take the risk and go ahead with that as my first choice or go with the tp one? sigh..
going to work later.. boring.. am now in a dilemma.
God help me.

met up with ah llinz and dory today!
sang, played and talked alot .. haha.. missed theit crap and their lameshits.. missed dory's saliva and ah llinz's constant buzzing..
haha.. ok lar.. its not as if we havent met up for eons.. but still.. aiyah.. u get what i mean lar..

photo taken with shorty's shaky hands.. but for once i look good in it..


sis said i look like a gremlin...

what to do? "MEW!"


and popcorn dinner! haha.. so CMI..

going to kbox with ah linz and dory in a few more hours.. i feel cheated.. paid a freaking 320 bucks for lenses.. now i'm broke and devastated.. not to mention (like what weini said).. that the waiting is emotional suicide.
really.
now i want to buy so many things. with the peanuts i'm offered at ntuc, its so definitely not going to be my day lar. i want the mei li zai wang (not just a pretty face) vcd now too.. the show that airs every weekday on channel8.. sigh.. plus the nike dunks that i have held on hold until now..
and the nano.

CALL ME AN IDIOT.

sigh.. but anyway, i think kbox going to cheer me up a little.. since iswak has lost its magic on me.. watched epi19 thrice.. cried the first time, watched the second time, and dreamt through the third.
sigh..

ok lar.. 2am already.. going to sleep and bring myself a day closer to the dreaded results..

did i mention i received $109 in coins today?
yeah. believe me, i had a hard time. =(

from www.moe.gov.sg :

6 Feb 2006

NOTIFICATION OF RELEASE OF 2005 GCE O-LEVEL EXAMINATION RESULTS/2006 JOINT ADMISSIONS EXERCISE

Release of 2005 GCE O-Level Examination Results

1. The results of the 2005 Singapore-Cambridge General Certificate of Education Ordinary Level Examination will be released on Friday, 10 February 2006.
2. School candidates may collect their results from their schools at 2.30pm on 10 February 2006. Private candidates will be informed of their results by post. Private candidates may also access their results through the Internet after 2.30pm on 10 February 2006, at the following website: http://www.seab.gov.sg
3. Students with ‘O’ level results will now have an additional option to apply for admission to the polytechnics under the Joint-Polytechnic Special Admissions Exercise (JPSAE). The JPSAE allows applicants to be assessed on broader criteria of merit, beyond the ‘O’ level results. Applicants can submit applications under both the Joint Admissions Exercise and the new JPSAE.

THE RESULTS ARE COMING OUT ON FRIDAY,10 FEB.
one word.
die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.
die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.
die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.
die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.die.

i'm so scared now even iswak epi 19 cannot cheer me up...
PLEASE LET ME GET AT LEAST AN A.
please......

i spent more than half of my pay today.
i spent 320 bucks on 13 pairs of toric lenses.
my hair is now black, thanks to the 'dark mahogany ash brown' dye.
i'm broke, and my hair is blacker than ever.
and part two of 'er zuo ju zhi wen' is still not out yet.
sigh.. this is so not my day..
but on a happier note, i can finally see better with lenses.. BWAHHAHAHAHAHA..

went to kbox (again) with sis, later joined by her friend sharon.. shopped around...
bought contacts, belt (to hold my jeans up), hair dye and marks&spencer biscuits..
i managed to spend more than 300 bucks on payday, and am now broke until the next pay day..
dun intend to use anymore of the money.. shall save and use my next pay to buy an mp3 player..

i'm broke!!!!!!!

one thing we must know about crabs. they draw blood.
like the stupid flower one did to me yesterday.. although its dead and everything. gah-
rest day today.. off day tmr.. YEAH. thats more like it!

Ten Words I Say On a Frequent Basis

1. I
2. huh?
3. member?
4. thank you
5. orh
6. okay
7. SORRY!
8. wa lao.
9. shit!
10. you're welcome.

have i mentioned that my life is pretty dull lately?

the o levels results will be out soon.. so scared..
i fear for myself, not doing well.
have been having terrible fleeting images in my mind recently.. f9s.. triumphant faces.. disappointed expressions.. everything. i have pictured each and every possible scenario befalling upon me.

i dreamt of:
-being one of the top pupils.
- getting A1s.

but then again, NO WAY was i going to do that.

i saw:
-gloating faces. to be specific, faces of whom i dislike.
-a F9-filled results slip.
-mrs kong shaking her head when she saw me.

sigh.. lets just hope these doesn't come true.. many things i'm afraid of, really..
though it may not matter to some, it matters really much to me.

i fear:
-not getting an A for english.
i know this is ridiculous, seeing how some people struggle just to pass. BUT HOW AM I GOING TO FACE PEOPLE IF I DUN GET A FREAKING A? i wouldn't dare return to mjr.
-not getting an A for lit.
screwed up twelfth night.. so i guess i wouldn't be too surprised.
-failing my a maths
cos my dad'll have a fit.
-not only for myself, but for my girlfriends..
please let them do WELL!!!!

so far i've came out with the best and worst case scenarios, each having occupied my thoughts for over a few hours..
or rather, after i sat down with a pensive look and tried to let my imagination run wild.

lets start with the bad news.

WORST CASE SCENARIO:

-f9s for everything, i run away from home and never return
-f9 for a maths, i run away from home and never return
-failure to enter course/school of desired choice, and run away from home and never return
-54pts, ditto above.

BEST THING THAT CAN EVER HAPPEN TO ME:

-top pupil.
haha! haha! this is really only in my dreams.
-ONE of the top pupils.
see abovementioned.
-10 for R4. call up everybody and scream into their ears "WHO'S DA MAN? I'M DA MAN!"


WHAT I WANT, actually,

is to have ok grades, no need to resort to runnig away from home and living happily ever after.



really.

I MISS SCHOOL!

came across a super rowdy and vulgar customer today. wanted to wring his neck very badly.
super bad day for me.
had to run all the way to the weighing station for this guy who happens to be talking away on his motorola v3.. left without a single 'thanks'. how rude..
lets talk about the super annoying guy... he is obviously a businessman who cannot pronounce his hokkien swear words properly.
have you ever heard "KEN-nina?" pardon me.
armed with this amazing array of swear words of hokkien and english, he screamed and kicked up this HUGE fuss. AA sia. wanted to throw some cabbages at him. he went to complain and made some more noise.
i'm so proud of myself i IGNORED him completely.
for the first time in 16 years, some kid called me an AUNTIE.
DO I LOOK LIKE AN AUNTIE???
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
had to extend my working hours because the next cashier made her appearance only two hours later. I WAS WORKING FOR 2 HOURS WITHOUT PAY.. and she 'diao-ed' me when she came la. WHAT IS THIS?
ran out out change and was only left with tens, fifties and hundreds.. had to ask for change for a kazillion times. stupid.
sigh...
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE RESULTS TO COME OUT.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL TO START.
man.. i'd give anything for some more lessons on differentiation now. so tired....
SIGH.

i have found yet another person who shares the same birthday as me.

JOE CHENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
haha.. so now i have the answer to why he is such a crapper. people born on the 19th of june have the wackiest life. heh..

hmm... i see my missing twin(s) everywhere now..

1. Joe Zheng Yuan Chang
2. Garfield
3. cuzzie born 2 hrs before me [she's a genius and i'm not. growl...]
4. cuzzie born many years after me. she's cute! =)
5. kindergarten to p school friend. he's CRAP.
6. friend of my dad..

wow.. HAHA.. no wonder. no wonder...
HE'S SO CUTE!!!
*like me* =)

I WAN THE ER ZUO JU ZHI WEN VCD!
saw the book at kinokuniya today. it costs a freaking bomb.. sigh.. will anyone buy it for me please? lol..
went to bugis today. had dinner with 4f.. kinda like a farewell party for yanting... she's going over to australia tomorrow.. dinner tore my pockets apart.
did i mention her present?
sigh..
JOE CHENG IS SO CUTE!!
AHHHHH!!
pardon me for my cmi-ness. heheh..
meanwhile, i shall start listing down my wants in the wishlist, and I WELCOME GIFTS ALL YEAR ROUND!
WHOO! IS THAT GOOD OR WHAT?
heh

if you guys are wondering why haven't i been blogging, here's the answer.
i have been 'er zuo ju zi wen'-ing.
i can't believe this. i'm sooo addicted to cheesy taiwanese series.. HAHA.
linz, you're right.
JOE CHENG IS SOOOOOO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so cute..

SO CUTE!!!!!!

sigh.. i'm so cannot-make-it.

i'm on afternoon shift today.. going to wear the ugly looking apron.. LOL..
not really looking forward to work.. everything is just so sian.
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE DAY I GET MY RESULTS.
everybody is going to the open house.
and i'm stuck at work. WHAT IS THIS?
ah heck. think of what i can buy after i get my pay.. hahahahah..

finally an off day for me.
FINALLY.
anyway for u guys studying your pants off in jc, RELAX. i'm sure its nothing compared to working.
i'd happily go back to school if u ask me to.
the stress we face while studying is nothing compared to working.
before i start nagging like a yaya auntie, let me rephrase the abovementioned.

what stresses me up (after 5 days in ntuc) :

- failure to convey ANY message to elderly men/women.
- shortages in money at the end of the day.
- "why the discount ONLY 2%???"
- when a whole line of grouchy looking customers appear at your counter.
- "YOU'RE GOING TO SPOIL MY TOMATOES!"
- when the ugly looking man asks you to hurry up.
- when customers pile their lifetime worth of rice (mind you. 10kg each.) on your counter.
- when aunties demand for angbao packet.
- "WHY NO FREE GIFT?"
- when they ask you to separate their purchase into 5 receipts to enter the lucky draw.
- WHEN THEY DUMP A FARM ONTO YOUR COUNTER. chickens and ducks leave ALOT of blood.
- when they sneak an extra orange/apple.
- when my hands smell like rotten seafood at the end of the day.

i'd gladly go back to mugging for o levels.
REALLY.

NO FOREIGN CURRENCY TODAY!
NO SHORTAGES!
NO EXCESSES!
I'M A GENIUS!!!!

LOL.. today is senior citizens day at ntuc.. i had to repeat the same questions over and over..
"member?"
"le4 ling2 ka3?"
"lao3 lang2 card4?"
and i stupidly asked a middle aged woman for the purple ezlink.
call me an idiot.

had a super yaya customer today. he insisted for elderly discount when i'm sure he's like.. 30+40...
i had to "I BEGGGG YOUR PARDON?"
yeah.. and he insisted he have huge plastic bags to stuff the other small bags..
talk about saving the environment. he's so irritating.
then he took like what? 15 minutes standing there checking his receipt. HAVE FAITH LAR!
I'M A PRO OK?
LOL.
and he asked me why did i key in 3 oranges.
and insisted that i was wrong.. until we took out his oranges and shoved it into his face.
told my colleague i felt like putting my fist through his crooked teeth and made her laugh like siao man.. haha.. evil me..

this job is totally fun lar.. minus the fact that i see yusof bin ishak's face everytime i close my eyes.
this is getting out of hand and i won't be surprised if i see him in person one day.
lets just hope he doesn't talk to me in malay. hokkien and teochew is already a handful.

i think i must learn how to phrase "pardon me for my bad and broken hokkien/teochew" in dialect.
the look on the old auntie's faces whenever i try to communicate effectively is hilarious.
i dun understand half of what they are saying and they same goes to them.
my rotting brain takes 10 seconds to convert english to dialect. pardon me, WRONG DIALECT.
okok.. i admit.. i cannot tell the difference between hokkien and teochew.
speak cantonese to me and i'll wonder if u are an indian.

SIGH.

i received hong kong money today.
in addition to the brunei and malaysia currency.
WOW.
met up with ah linz and dory today.. had sakae, which was disappointing.
HOW CAN YOU NOT HAVE CHA SOBA AND SOMEN?
stupid. i'm never ever going to visit the citilink branch, ever, again.
bought a new pair of jeans which shredded the remnants of my wallet.
at least i dun have to wear the pair i have been wearing ever since i started training..
one week plus. i'm sure they really stink now. YUCKS. i know.
you can't blame me. until today i only have a pathetic pair of jeans.
poor me.

i have no life now.
NO LIFER- bring it on, dudette.
cashiering is uber boring.
customers take me as a retard.
38 $1 coins
MALAYSIA RINGGIT.
tomatoes packed the wrong way.
FISH. DUCK. CHICKEN = BLOOD.
this is SICK.

so tired.. i'm gonna crash..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

i woke up with a dire need to blog. 2.21am..not the ideal time to be typing away at my comp, but still i know this is something i have to talk about.

a few months ago i went to this particular service at brighton..
the message is still clear in my mind- till today.. i can remember it was during mid july (if i'm not wrong), it is the only message- so far- that i felt that it was the most important in my life.

it wasn't about salvation. nor was it about the truths of life.

it was about masks.

this is not something opera singers don on every performance.
it is also not jim carrey as the mask.

this is the invisible mask that each and every one of us have.
the mask you wear to school - to gain attention/ to be invisible
the mask you wear to work - to act as a professional
the mask you wear in front of your crush
the mask you wear when despite being torn apart by harsh words, you shrug them all off.

this is what keeps us alive in this dog-eat-dog world.at the same time, this is also what destroys us.

i must admit. i have on different masks all the time. when i pretend to be the outgoing one, loud and cheerful when at times i really needed a break from the world.
when i pretend to be undeterred by passing remarks that may have torn my heart into pieces.
even when i cannot bring myself to tell some of the people i detest to get out of my life.
this makes me a liar, backstabber, bitch..
everything everybody claimed to hate.

i have on this mask ALL THE TIME.

but then again, nobody's perfect.
this is the mask everybody has on.
during that particular saturday, the message hit a nerve in everybody in the room.
it was the most sensitive, close to the heart issue i have ever came across.
when asked "are you going to surrender you mask at the altar?", it took almost 15 minutes before the single hand was raised.
that guy was the only one who dared to. because nobody else wanted to admit that they have this mask on. even in church. i admire him for his courage.

the mask[s] has become a part of us. something which we can never ever bring ourselves to confess of its presence.
there is only one person i know of, my entire life, who hides behind so many facades.. so many.
that i do not know who she really is.
whenever we show a sign of weakness, it is when the mask is slipping away.
the fragile mind of the human being is indeed, hard to decipher.
but this girl. she had on so many masks. that i had to ask myself, "do i really know her?"
frankly speaking, she could be any stranger i meet on the streets. i know nothing about her. absolutely nothing.

we humans do not like to be seen as weak, helpless and stripped of all hope.
we prefer to be known as strong, courageous and full of hope. these 3 words fuel our ego.
nobody wants to be unknown.
everyone wants to make an impact to the world.
perhaps the only key to this door which leads to ultimate success is the curtain we hide behind. the curtain of many shades, colours, materials.
the curtain which shows what we want others to see.

when i come across friendster profiles, i see many proclaiming their hate for liars and backstabbers.
bull.
everybody lie.
everybody backstab.
some people even attempted murder with physical and emotional warfare.
owners of these profiles. does that mean you love no one in the world, including yourself?

the mask is the weapon of mass destruction.
it hides greed, lust,hate and undesirable thoughts that any man can ever conceive.
it protects your ego and the weaker part of yourself.
it crushes the life out of the entire human race.
all these done out of selfishness.

it seems that nobody is innocent anymore.
the mask. until now i haven't figured out what exactly was i hitting at.

i just had to blog about this.
somebody, enlighten me.

note to self:
crazy- simple plan
girl next door- saving jane

i never blog enough. haha.. really.. am using the other computer now.. my dad sent the dell one for servicing.. my sis and i are damn *power* sia... haha.. this time it has nothing to do with software. its the hardware problem. the cd burner is stuck. ARGH- *stupiak*
it feels so weird cos all of a sudden i'm staring at a white computer covered with a layer of dust.. haha.. speaking of which dust actually tastes mostly like charcoal and mildew and salt and rust. eew. dun ask me how i know. lol..
[makes a mental note to read the news. not just the comics and tv section.]
it really pays to know the news sometimes.. otherwise it would be totally stupid to have a blog and have nothing to write in it.. heh.. realised that i have taken a sudden liking to my sister's keyboard.. i dun even have to whack the keys like i do with the other one.. must think of something else to type about.. maybe i can like... time myself when i type.. so i can fill up my resume in total confidence the next time.. haha.. imagine.. 3000 wpm. bwahaha.. i know i sound a little bit off today.. what i did today really made me steer off course.. haha..
woke up at ard 9 today..went to the bank... i cant believe i had to wake up that early just to go to the bank. they have the strangest opening hours..
ok.. note to self: Bo Bice - the real thing.
thats the song i want.. haha... power98-ing.. yada yada.
i have a feeling this is a completely CRAP post. may end up deleting the entire thing. i feel so *lame*.
ok.. where was i? oh.. the bank.. the woman laughed at me when i told her i'll be working in ntuc.. haha.. appied for the atm card.. FINALLY.
i was like..
me: "ntuc.. cashier*stupid grin*"
her: "really? *laugh* good good.. next time u can be bank cashier.."
me: " oh.. heh heh.. dunwan lar.. haha.."
ok.. i almost told her she was welcomed to visit me there whenever possible.. haha.
me? bank cashier? are you kidding? my maths is totally shite lor.
yeah..then it started to rain. as usual i didnt have an umbrella.. walked in the rain to macdonalds. had lunch, lonely.. and wet.
how low can i go? felt so pathetic.. even the mac aunty thought i was a loner, a liu3 lang4 han4.
WAH!
suddenly its a good thing for me to start working soon.
i'm too bored. so now you know why i've been crapping so much in this post. i'm bored and i feel like i'm the only person on earth now.
47% of maplestory installed.
48%..
AH HECK! this is SO SLOW!
lol..

i'm officially hired!
announcing.. her royal highness,
VALERIE THE CASHIER.
hahaha.. xD
will be working at ntuc in aljunied crescent wef 13jan.. friday the 13.. training at queenstown blahlablah.. and guess what? i'll be training with weini! haha.. it must be fate, girl..
it must be fate.
turned out she went for the interview today after i did.. bwahaha.. met p.schl friend carmen who happened to be cashiering there as well.. wahhaa.. turned out i'm not alone!
okay.. i admit.. i'm excited about this non-exciting job..
bring it on! cashier! yayness~
xD

too much time spent rotting at home makes me desperate. after spending quality time on the phone with various potential employers and leelin respectively, i have finally found a job.
will be going down for an interview tomorrow.. yada yada.. not really very exciting lar.. lol..
if everything goes as planned, i will work at the ntuc near my house.
save transport fares.
save time.
save money on meals. i can always eat at home..
HAHA.. okok.. i admit lar..
i'm too bored..
wish me luck! xD

2006 already.. time really flies..
what really happened in 2005? i can't remember..
sigh..
okay. 2006! i haven't really thought much of a new year's resolution (besides losing weight-DUH) so maybe i'll give it a go.. haha..

my 2006 addictions and cravings...
in a nutshell.

.Mike He Jun Xiang.
the oh-my-goodness-he's-so-hot guy who starred in 'devil beside you', '7th grade','express boy', 'say yes enterprise' and 'love contract'.. my heart just skipped a beat.. haha..

please say he's cute. haha..
.Devil Beside You .
it all started with Devil Beside You.. this is a die die must watch show!
to me of course..heh..

**note to ah llinz.. PLEASE GO TO THIS SITE. http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t165837.html
devil beside you vs it all started with a kiss.. this is sooooo your show lorh! LEND ME THE VCD!!!**
all of a sudden i feel so cheena.. what happened? haha.. must watch more english stuffs.. i can feel my english lingo dropping at a devastating rate already..
AHHH! haha..
.music.
ah.. some of the nicest songs i have found in 2005..
Always -Bon Jovi (old and nice.. haha)
Welcome to Wherever You Are -Bon Jovi (new and also nice)
Give Me Novacaine -Green Day
Sugar We're Going Down -Fall Out Boy (100 thumbs up)
Miracles Happen -Myra (princess diaries!!)
Ai Mei - Yang Cheng Ling (Devil Beside You O.S.T)
.What I Want in 2006. besides losing weight
give my best academic-wise.. JC or Poly, BRING IT ON!
lend the vcd from ah llinz
an oh-my-goodness-he's-so-hot boyfriend.. HAHA..
and of course, LOSE WEIGHT.
.What I Learnt in 2005.
make wiser decisions..
work hard or regret later

these are what i can think of at the moment.. in the meantime..
BACK TO THE SHOW!!!
hahhahahaa xD