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its been quite some time since i've been online.. i've almost forgotten how to type.
the days have been flying past at the speed of light, soon it'll be graduation night.. in about 2 weeks, i'll graduate from mjr.. even though i disliked the school, but i still cannot accept the fact that in 2 weeks, i'll never be in a normal classroom, having lessons as usual. suddenly i regret the times i refused to go to school.. gah- monday blues.. am i prepared?
no.
haha.. o levels are coming.. too soon.
and to think my mum was so happy about my prelim results because she had expected me to retain and repeat sec 4. in say.. 2 years we will be downing ourselves with booze while reminiscing about how the toilet handle got pulled out and wake up the next day with a hangover and the sudden realisation that we are no longer kids.
in 20 years, we'll (hopefully) have a stable job, and a family.
in 50 years i'll be travelling aroubd the world in search of adventures. which means, yes, i'll most likely streak my hair with loads of colours and get at least a tattoo..
you only have one life. don't waste it.
in the meantime, it's back to studying harder than ever for o levels, which means nothing to my dunman high cousin. growl.
psle means nothing to me now.

i love my girlfriends.. haha.. the sweet sour bitter and spicy..
introducing:
leelin - xiao tian tian
kohmei - suan ku ku
valerie - la mei!
hahhaa.. la mei.. i'm hot.. yeah baby..was laughing my head off.. goodness.. they can come up with such things..
re-did my amaths paper today.. 16 marks careless.. otherwise i could have gotten a better grade.. but hell, it's over already.. anyway.. from monday onwards, we are all going to pia.. we are going to cram everyday but tuesday.. cause its the supposedly non-existant day of the month. some elf's birthday. do elves eat sushi? only this one.
here's to you, shorty.
you're going to be 16 on 27sept. honoured anot? haha..
although u still look like you are 12, you are finally allowed to watch nc16 shows- behold; the power of the identification card. hahhahaha
ok girlfriends, i think i'm going to end here..
haha..

went out with the girls today.. check out how hiong our beloved leelin was.. she's insane.. too much stress.. haha..went out yesterday.. here are the pics..



i look good! haha... self praise..



roasted pig.. crazy girl.
-[edit]-
_llin[ potential mugger` says:
im not roasted pig hor`
_llin[ potential mugger` says:
im sexy`
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and so they say...



presenting our very own queen of imitations! who do you think she's trying to act as this time?



yeah right. i dun care even if you are wearing esprit socks. they stink.

went to suntec with linz and dory they all yesterday.. met my sis for dinner at tcc.. the smoked salmon linguine is nice! haha.. tiramisu.. mmm...




trying to come up with something abstract..see the spoon?



bored.



see that look? she looks sooooo absorbed in that newsletter.. hahaa




bored.. and hungry..




really really bored..



hahaha...



one nice photo!



esplanade.. the lookalikes.. of course. we are sisters. >.<

some arty- farty NYC imitation.. only with a twist..




like i've said.. haha..



dory and me!

ok.. i admit! i was feeling bored.. haha.. see that cute lady in the cute suit? that's my cute sister.. =)


did i mention i saw this demented girl somewhere?



hahahahhahaa...

nothing much has changed.. still feel like vomiting every now and then.. i feel hungry.. but when i have something to eat i'll lose my appetite..i spell horribly now. can't even spell thermometer.
walao.. i was like what.. semi-conscious during phy paper..handwriting was atrocious.. keep coming up with super weird figures for my answers.. i can't even think properly now.
lets just hope that i dun faint later on.. i'm hungry!! but i have nothing fit for my consumption.. even a sultana biscuit makes me puke like shit.
AHHHHHHHHHHH

like i've said, i feel like shit. why? cos i got jabbed in the butt. pain.. >.<
haha.. fever back yesterday.. gone today.. but i feel nauseous... keep wanting to vomit.. haiz.. anyway.. had a maths and lit today.. amaths nv do 16 marks.. haha.. lit.. mental block.. sit there stare into space.. haha.. write very little.. was thinking abt why we should do twelfth night.. why can't it be macbeth or romeo and juliet? they are.. like so familiar to me.. why twelfth night? ah well.. easy questions though.. but they cant beat my mental block.
yeap.. went to the doctor's yesterday.. it may or may not be dengue.. better not be dengue.. dengue i cry sia.. vomited twice today.. actually i wouldn't call that vomit.. since i didnt eat much.. didnt have yesterday's lunch and dinner.. didnt eat breakfast.. a maths still ok.. lit no energy to think sia.. sit there until so pek chek.. now i have a hearty dosage of pills as my lunch, dinner etc.. they taste like shit. i hate being sick. still got ulcer sia.. what could be worse?
i had almost no energy after lit.. my legs were wobbly.. sigh.. suddenly i feel so old.... >.<
that injection only drove away the fever.. scully tmr it come back.. got pattern de... sat fever sun nothing mon fever today nothing.. tmr fever how.. -__-"
sigh..
i hate being sick.. and what pissed me off was that i cannot even SPELL properly now.. so many cancellations in my paper.. wa lao!
but what cheered me us was the relative velocity and the linear law.. haha
i can't spell.. somebody send me back to kindergarten.. oh wait.. i didn't know how to speak when i was in kindergarten.. make it primary school..
BWAHAHHAHA...
current favourite word/sound "bbpthwuay!" (ask me how to pronounce..i'll let u know.. haha)

had super high fever yesterday.. felt like shit.. 38.9 sia.. spent the whole day wonering if its dengue or sars.. but dun have the symptoms.. haha.. then i thought about my enzymes denaturing at 42 degrees.. or how i can go retarded or become some eccentric genius.. kept myself quiet until my sis came home at 2am.. sat on the bed and crapped to her until she fell asleep.. some audience.. haha.. i miss crapping.. anyway thanks to my cg.. i feel better le! I CAN CRAP LE!'
haha.. i thought about loads of stuffs.. like how i cannot die without a boyfriend.. haha.. or how i cannot die without having bought an electric guitar.. hahaha...i'm back to normal today.. apart from the fact that i have to drink homemade barley (yay) and porridge (eew) and mouth ulcer (double eew)... anyway.. since i have nothing else i have better to do.. let me tell you how i rotted yesterday

woke up at 12.. migraine.. so damn pain..
lie on the bed..
messaged jasmine they all say i cannot go..
lie on the bed..
took some daddy-prescibed pills
lie on the bed...
think about how i cannot die
sleep..
woke up with fever
38.9
dun believe
take again
38.9
wondered if my thermometer is spoilt
lie on bed again
sleep.
made to drink loads of water
go toilet
lie on bed
go toilet
vomit
lie on bed
take temperature 38.6
lie on bed
take more pills
cg called
lie on bed
sleep
woke up at 12. hungry.. haha
ate half a piece of sultana cake and a cup of tea
sleep..
sis came back at 2.
felt better.. crapped until my fever no more
sis fell asleep
nothing to do.. whole day sleep super high
decided to sleep

tadaa..
hahhahahahha
ahahhaahahhahaha
buhbye

i need a new phone. this phone is driving me crazy! was suffering from trauma throughout the day. &*^%#!$%& emaths paper. until i woke up and decided to sing all day. as in wail all the song lyrics.. think my neighbours already got used to it. this is what the students of singapore is facing: stress. wa lao.. do e maths until want to cry sia. *incoherent mumbling*
they intend to go jamming after prelims.. whee.. i can't wait this time. to hell with the exams. i might as well retain and take sec 4 all over again. ok.. here's the plan : we form a band, we jam, we disband. cool huh? heh.. saving up money now.. dad asked me what i really want. think i will cont. taking violin lessons. why else did i buy the thing? yah.. on the other hand i can keep it till i'm 40 and resell it as some vintage product. a maths and lit tmr. can't be bothered.
should i buy a strat? looks cool.. i even thought of what i'm going to do to it. but the better ones cost a freaking bomb. fender strat going at $999. no way i can afford that. the samick one i saw.. was it a strat? dun think so.. never heard of that brand even. ah... or should i go for the bass? maybe i should stick to the classics stuff.. haha..
learning how to read drum tabs now.. totally cool. my guitar is in a really bad condition.. unsuitable strings which make me bleed..but the sound quite nice lehs..haha.. maybe u will see me in the streets of orchard wailing "unchained medley" for some extra cash... but still.. WE'RE GOING TO JAM! yay...
oh i forgot
to any authority figure who will insist on sending me to counselling after he/she reads this post, please ignore whatever you have read. i am completely sane and i don't care if i'm not getting my priorities right. i will still study. i don't love mjr that much.
ok.. i'm bored again. haha

i wan to cry sia. I DUNNO HOW TO DO MY EMATHS. sad. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad sad. amaths... no need say le lar.. emaths dunno how to do a maths? just cross my fingers and hope i can pass.

i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't care
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't care
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't
i don't care if you don't care

i don't care if you don't - Green Day (J.O.S)

didnt have enough time for my geog. ended the paper with 2 points with 6 sub-points. i don't care. haha.. point form.. no time what. it's a miracle i can even complete the last question within 3 minutes. my handwriting was uncomprehendable. was scribbling like siao.
tomorrow is amaths.. no comments. and lit p1.. think mdm wi will give another killer paper.. her favourite.. ah heck. i dun want to go to a jc. prelims. nothing lar. i don't care. hahaa..

My mind is set on overdrive.
The clock is laughing in my face
A crooked spine
My sense dulled
Passed the point of delirium
On my own... here we go - Green Day ( Brain Stew)

chem was do-able
not that i can guarantee an A. cos i dun even know if i can pass.haha..
will be having emp2 and geog tomorrow. ^%*&^^%$* transformations. hope it doesn't come out tomorrow.. i'll cry. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let it be graphical solutions.. geog.. haha..
still left untouched. finished yet another storybook.. I FAILED MY ENGLISH. =( expected.
sigh.. i kissed goodbye to my A in combined humans. essay not finished.. i will kiss goodbye the A i'm hoping for if transformation decides to organise a surprise birthday party or something..
examination blues. you will never fail to subconciously remove 10 strands of hair/day.

its 11.30pm
chemistry p3 + physics/chem p1 - tomorrow
preparation -none
revision - none
topics reviewed - none.
storybooks read today - one and a half.
miss tay's so gonna kill me. think mrs tan too.. haha.. am i pro or what? guess what? i failed my EL p2. byebye to first 3 months in jc.
i love e maths. was smiling to myself like a retard while doing the paper.. hope to get at least an A2 this time.. couldn't finish my ss paper.. they should have made it a 2 hr paper. i had ALL THE POINTS. just not enough time. my handwriting was...illegible...
i think it is now the time for me to heed daddy's advice. stop going to the library. yeah..read ps i love u for the 3rd time and meg cabot's teen idol today.. haha.. i'm hopeless..
geez.. i think i'm just not cut out for studying.. the paper begins in what? 9 hours? and i'm happily blogging...
ok lar.. go study le.. have fun! =)

my dad bought us a hi fi set yesterday.. philips.. ok lar.. quite nice.. it plays mp3s.. lols.. now i can really listen to green day 24/7.. haha.. went to spc again yesterday... we are now an area- jasmine's cg, yanjun's cg and alywin's cg.. alywin is our AO and jiaying is our AM.. no more same area with carista they all le..but nvm.. haha.. i'm glad to be back on a regular basis. from this day forth, my studies, my music and my life are in God's hands. will study and play.. haha..
anyway.. i had a brilliant plan just now.. u see, i saw an electric guitar going for $185.. i gawked and kept telling my parents.. guess what. i need my results. sigh.. i was stunned la.. $185 is cheap for an eg lorhs.. so i was walking with them, jaded.. then my mum starts scolding me.. say i give them black face cos they dun want to buy it for me.. goodness.. nvm.. she nagged at me all the way back home.. until i asked her what's for lunch tomorrow.. boy, i'm so clever.. haha..
oh.. about my brilliant plan.. i'm going to live on plain water and save up for it.. think i will be able to afford one once i'm done with o levels.. yay... and.. i'm going to get 7 distinctions. (or at least 1)
haha.. not so sure about the 7 distinctions, but i will strive for it! =)
all the other people out there!
you must get at least 10 distinctions. that is- if you are those who study like siao, and have that many subs.. haha..
i'm mad... $185 = 185 bottles of pink dolphin
185 sticks of fishballs
185 currypuffs
92.5 plates of chicken rice
15+ movie tickets
16+ trips to kbox
and i can save up by drinking plain water all day.. lols.. and i'll be able to lose weight in the meantime! wow.. lols..
i really am mad..

Take the What Member of Green Day am I most Like? Quiz at GDA

woke up at 2 today.. haha.. watched barney for the second day in a row.. goodness.. anyway.. if u are reading this now, remember to watch the hurricane katrina charity concert tomorrow at 8am on chn 5.. why? because green day's in it!
lols.. liddat liddat.. another confession: didn't study.
oops.

i finished the chapter on Venice! yayness!
ok.. so i'm left with.. lots of others to go.. whheeee.. one down. many to go.. lols..
watched Herbie with my sis.. it rocks! lols.. so cute.. heh..

its 1:48am. i'm awake and staring at this bright screen in my dark room. oh gosh.. guess what i have been doing for the entire day? rotting of course. didnt pick up any books today.. feeling as guilty as ever.. man.. i've had this feeling since sec 3. i have no idea why i loathe studying. is it because of my class? nah. they're nice.. workaholics, but nice.. i realised this stinking attitude of mine towards books jumped into my life over a year ago. Why did i choose to let it take over my life? over the months i've been telling myself from this day forth i will study like i never did..and over and over again i find myself back into square one.
my english is getting from bad to worse.. i'm incapable of forming comprehensible sentences. my vocab is totally trash. and i still can't tell the difference between adjectives and verbs. wow. ok.. enough about english. lit.. ok.. when was the last time i read i'm the king of the castle? last year. my shakespeare is crap. art,thou,thee,thy.. wadever. they make no sense to me. my e maths is fab. i love e maths. looking forward to improvements.. yada yada.. a maths, still caught in that never ending traffic jam.. first it was differentiation. now? integration and what- kinematics. goodness.. the last time a gave a real thought about physics was when mr sreeni threw my workbook out of the class.. THAT long ago. ok.. mental note: revise MORE physics. chem; hopeless. i cannot even balance the equations. chinese.. at least i secured a b3..i'm still at venice for social studies.. geog.. wa lao.. first in class to last in class.. achievement in a lifetime.
talk about hopeless..
everyday i see myself resorting to totally crap computer games that will never help me get a bloody cert..ok.. maybe after this i will delete the games and put "STUDY" as my computer wallpaper.yeah.. it sounds helpful.
ok.. enough about the 'i'm-so-useless' rants. going for chem in what? 7 and a half hours from now? not prepared in anyway.. going to study with shortie.. oh.. i'm telling u.. my english is a total disaster. even my chinese inclined mates speak bombastically- much to my distaste. maybe i'll take up hokkien or something.. i'll never forget what miss cheong wrote in my paper. 'i'm sure you'll never make it past prelims or o levels'. sad sia.
note to self:
-do away with that stinking attitude
-delete games
-study more
-feel my work with 'effort's to the brim
-tolerate. smile at teachers (eww. must work on that)
-study more.
-stop going to the library everyday. ( ps. i read at least 1 storybook a day. no wonder my dad didn't want me to go)
-turn on the computer only when i blog.
-study more.

gah.. so much for trying to make my student life a better one..

i need to study very badly now.. sigh.. i really need to study.

there is a fear of butterflies. yeap. go google for it.. heh..went to study.. social studies.. social studies.. social studies.. ok.. i shall proclaim this day as the social studies day..

VENICE

reasons for rise to greatness of Venice (3 points)
-political
-economic
-social

political (7 points)
-strong govt.
-fair electoral system
-capable & committed leadership
-effective system of checks on power
-practical policies
-strong navy
-citizens' involvement in ensuring public peace

economic (4 points)
-trade monopoly
-adventurous spirit (MARCO POLO!)
-trade services
-manufacturing

social (2 points)
-attracting foreign talent
-loyalty to Venice


decline of Venice (2 points)
-external factors
-internal factors

external (4 points)
-wars with Ottoman Empire
-rise of large states (eg. France, Spain)
-Discovery of new sea route
-competition from new rivals in trade

internal (5 points)
-corruption in goverenment
-government policies
-complacency
-incompetent military leaders
-over-dependence on mercenaries
-insensitivity towards neighbours

lessons (5 points)
-committed citizenry
-good governance
-adaptability
-strong defence
-international relations


just elaborate on all these points.. yada yada.
i think i'm bored stiff. i'm actually studying! haha..
jiayou for your prelims!

ok people. this is it. presenting www.i-hate-butterflies.blogspot.com.. why? because i'm a lepidopterophobic. it means i fear butterflies.. well.. moths too.. wanted to name this blog www.lepidopterophobia.blogspot.com, but i figured no one would know how to spell it. yeap. i don't even know how to pronounce it.. heh.. so this is a typical sixteen year old kiddo's blog.
like my previous one, i rant all day about everything under the sun.
its the september holidays. in 6 days i will be sitting for the prelims. ok.. i admit. my books have been collecting dust since the beginning of this year. i can even see cobwebs..
ok.. its not that bad.. my books are just lying there.. read through the chapter on Venice for social studies...no elaboration needed. ok.. i skimmed through the notes.. in what? 10 minutes? face it. social studies is boring. for the rest of this week i'll be facing the same problem over and over again. no! *slaps myself* you gotta mug! man..
ok.. mug.. heh.. tomorrow..
procrastination is a talent that no one seems to appreciate sometimes.. haha..